My Story [I need your Attention]

I need your attention

     Some might call me selfish, self centered, and stupid. But I say I'm desperate. He never looks at me anymore. He never asks me how I am. He only pays attention to the tramps he brings to the hotel. Everyday a new one, every night he searches for a companion. My company isn’t enough anymore. Things didn’t used to be this bad. If I think back to about 2 years ago he used to care about me much more.

  "Hey little bruder. What’s up?” Tom asked sitting next to me on my bed.

   "I'm okay. Could be better if my voice didn’t feel so exhausted." I smiled absentmindedly.

He stayed with me the whole day and took care of me. Not caring that he had other affairs to tend to. He only cared about me.

   Those were the days I missed. But now Tom only cared about Tom and getting his women. He didn’t care about his little brother anymore. He didn’t care about if I needed him or wanted him around. He called me a baby because I didn’t want him to go out tonight. But it’s been 4 months since I’ve had him to myself. 4 months since I’ve been with him. Yes I'm with him every day but that’s different, that’s the time spent with the band. When I want him I want only him. Not Georg, Gustav or David around. I missed my brother and he wasn’t paying attention.

    I had to come up with a plan. Something that would get him to pay attention to me no matter what he wanted. Something that would make sure he didn’t or couldn’t keep from thinking about me. But I had to be sneaky about it. I had to make sure he didn’t suspect a thing.

     "Hey Bill... Are you still mad?" He asked walking out of the bathroom with a towel wrapped around his waist.

     "No Tomi, I’ve decided to get over it. I guess I was being childish. I'm sorry." I said walking past him patting his shoulder. What I really wanted to say was. ‘Yes I’m still mad you idiot! But after tonight you’re going to be sorry. You’re going to be begging to be with me but it will be too late!’ But I kept those words bottled up inside.

     "Well gut, mein gott Bill I didn’t want you to be mad forever. But I'm glad you came to your senses. Are you coming out tonight?" My twin called from the other room.

  ‘No you idiot. I have big plans for when you return and I need to prepare.’

 "Um no, I think I’ll stay in and watch movies. I have a headache and don’t feel like being around any drunken people." I said. Even though it was a lie. I didn’t care so much about drunken people. They were actually quite entertaining. 

  Tom walked into the bathroom. He was fully dressed now. In a black XXl tee shirt and matching dark jeans with his favorite Tom cap on. His nikes with a white and black hoodie. I wasn’t too fond of people that dressed in such baggy clothes but my older twin never looked better in his favorite attair.

      I lay in bed and thought for awhile. I wanted to end all this pain. I knew that after tonight I could never take it back, I could never change what would happen. And he would forever be thinking about me.

        I walked over to the drawer and grabbed the razorblade from the bottom drawer. I went to the bathroom and wrote ‘Attention’ on the huge mirror in black eyeliner. They would all hate him for this, and he would forever be in guilt. I headed to the bathroom and turned on the shower. I figured I would clean myself up before I did anything.

    My shower was long and calming. I wasn’t afraid of doing it, I was just afraid someone might try and stop me. Dying isn’t my fear; living without his attention is what scares me the most.

    Once I was done and dressed my phone rang. The first call I ignored. It was Geo, but the second one I picked up.

“Hello?”

“Bill! Bill! It’s Tom! He’s... Oh god!”

     My heart started beating faster the longer it took for him to tell me. “Georg what’s wrong? What happened to him?” He was silent and just told me to come to the hospital downtown. I hung up the phone and sat there staring at the razorblade.

    I ran to my jacket and ran straight to the car. When I got to the hospital they rushed me to urgent care. Tom was lying there, with all these machines plugged up to him.

I ran to Geo and asked what happened.

   “I don’t know. First we were having a few drinks then he started crying about how you have been ignoring and avoiding him… Then he took a whole bottle of vodka and hopped in the car. He was… He was trying to kill himself. You should see the car, it looks terrible. They still don’t know how he survived.”

   The rest of what Geo said wasn’t important. But Tom thought I was ignoring him, that I wasn’t giving him any attention. I was so wrapped up in my own feelings I never noticed him.

   Just then I broke down in tears, I put my hands in my pocket and felt the razorblade. I looked at my brother who was still unconscious on the hospital bed. I knew what I had to do, I walked over to the bed and kissed Tom on the forehead. “You will make it brother. Forever and always, I love you.” I walked away and walked to the hall bathroom.

   I locked the door and looked in the mirror. I stared at myself. “It’s not about you anymore Bill. It never was.” I said pulling the razor against the thin skin of my wrists; vertically because horizontally just doesn’t work. I felt the blood rush down my arms onto my hands. I fell to the ground praying that my soul and energy returned to Tom. I know it sounds crazy but I feel that taking my life would give Tom his. And I would do anything to make sure he lives.

Miracles can come true

     Just as Bill’s life was slipping away, Tom was beginning to awake. Georg went looking for Bill while Gustav was watching after Tom. Just so he could see a familiar face when he woke. Gustav listened to the mumbles from Tom’s mouth. “Bill. Trouble. Hurt.” Tom repeated, the words only growing louder.

     Gustav didn’t think anything of it. Since Tom had been out so long it could’ve been a dream. But Tom was determined to get his attention I the right place.

    Georg was standing outside of the bathroom. “Bill! Tom is waking. Come on, hurry!” He yelled against the door. Bill was on the other side just barely holding on to life. He stared at the door with lazy dying eyes and cried. He wanted to see his brother one last time. But he was too weak to get up.

Georg began banging on the door. “Bill open the door please! What’s wrong, Tom is okay! Talk to me!” He screamed.

    Tom reached for Gustav and pulled him close. “Save Bill please.” He cried. “He’s in trouble, right now!” He tried to scream.

    Gustav stared at him, and then nodded. “I’ll be back.” Gustav raced to the nearest nurse. “Come with e please!” He pulled on her arm. Gustav wasn’t sure if he was doing the right thing. But usually when Tom or Bill sensed something with each other it was always right.

   He pulled her to the bathroom where he found Georg. “He won’t come out; he won’t even talk to me. I think something’s wrong.” Georg said looking devastated.

The nurse pulled out a large set of keys and unlocked the door.

     “Bill!” Gustav and Georg screamed running to his body lying on the floor paler than usual. The nurse called for a doctor as Georg carried him to the gurney.

    When the doctor came to the room they placed Bill in, Georg and Gustav were told to wait outside. The doctor came to tell them that there was no saving Bill. He had been alone too long.

    Gustav and Georg cried on the way back to Tom’s room. When they returned Tom was sitting up staring at the wall. “Where’s Bill?” He asked coldly.

    Part of Gustav felt like Tom already knew. Georg was silent. Tom didn’t turn to look at them. “He’s gone isn’t he? He took his life because of me? Because I couldn’t just talk to him.” Tom said still staring at the wall. There were tears pouring out of his eyes, but he didn’t let it change his face.

   Tom wasn’t listening anymore. He was trying to sense his brother but it wasn’t working. He knew Bill was gone and that it was for him. He knew Bill took his own life because he believed it could save him. But Bill was wrong, Tom still died. Tom died the moment Bill’s heart stop beating.

Class Review/ Feedback

The poetry unit was very fun, and I loved the writing short stories. I think that the lyrics presentations were a great idea. Just cause it gets people to hear new music. Overall I thik the class was fun. I'm very into writing so I knew I would like the class.


I don't really like having to write about a specific topic, so maybe a little more freedom with the short story. Like have like three writing topics instead of just one.

My own Restaurant [Daily journal]

The place would be called The Scene and it would serve all kinds of food. Like little variety of all kinds of food. Then it would be located in uptown minneapolis. I would have different bands performing everynight. Like local bands to give them exposure and support. Then at night it would be like a listening bar too so that people can come and hear the bands.

My story.. New Zonia: Humanoid

New Zonia: Humanoid

Prologue

I felt my head spin. I don’t know who these people were who had taken me but they had. I felt my body being strapped to a cold table. I tried to yell but I heard no sound. I tried moving my body but I couldn’t feel anything. My vision was burry and I couldn’t make out any of the shapes in form of me. Soon I felt completely cut off from the world.

My mind was empty all I could think about was if I was dead or if I was just sleeping. I felt like I was in a dream world now, except this dream never ended. Nothing ever changed. I knew I was dreaming because the world was blank, no trees no people just me and my loneliness. I missed my family, I missed my friends, and I missed my girlfriend. I couldn’t imagine how they felt not knowing where I was or what had happened to me.

After what felt like literally forever I felt myself slipping away from the dream I was having. I felt my feelings come back the physical ones anyways. I could see the shapes in front of me moving. There was someone above me talking but I couldn’t make out the words or the face. I saw I bright light wave over my face then I felt pressure on my arm.

What has happened to me? What did these people do to me? Why am I here? So many questions ran through my head as the feeling in my body returned. Although I could feel it felt as though my limbs haven’t moved in years. Though I couldn’t have been out for longer than a day. Too bad I would find out the truth and it would definitely send me over the edge.

New Zonia: Humanoid

Book One

“Vitals are good doctor. She’s beginning to move on her own.” The woman above me said pulled at my limbs lightly. I wasn’t sure what she meant and what doctor? Was I in the hospital? Did they find me? “What’s going on? Where am I?” I asked trying to lift my body from the table. “Calm down Keely Renee, your body hasn’t fully recovered yet. Once it has and the tests are done. The doctor will explain everything.” She waved a light over my eyes again. Then I felt pressure on my chest and then I was out again.

Waking up this time not strapped to the cold table but this time in a bed, a warm bed at that. I snapped up and looked around. I was in a room with two dressers, a bed and a large window. Except outside this window it looked like a totally different world. I rose from the bed and walked over to the longer dresser. There were clothes folded with some device on top. When I picked up the device a light flashed and a picture shot out of it. Except the picture looked like an actual person. A woman, the same woman from the first time I woke up. “Hello Keely Renee, I know things must be very confusing for you. But all will become clear once you are dress and report to the briefing room down the hall from your room.” She smiled.

“Uh is it normal for me to be completely freaked out?” I asked staring at the holographic woman standing in the room.

She laughed. “Actually yes, if you weren’t freaked out then we might have doubts about you. Now hurry and get dress there is much to be discussed. Make sure you keep this. I have to make sure I can contact you at all times, I’ll explain more once we meet.”

I nodded and then she was gone. The device shut off and laid it back on the dresser. I changed into the clothes that were left out. It was a tight black leather jumper and had black boots to match. I felt like someone from Charlie’s angel and it didn’t feel too great. But I was in no position to cross these people because I had no idea where I was and what was going to happen to me.

When I walked down the hallway I saw others dressed in similar outfits to mines. Except the guy’s outfits didn’t look so snug. I wish I could trade with them. There were lots of people most of them said hi to me. But there were some who just ignored me. I didn’t care either way until I figured I was lost. I found the friendliest looking person to ask for directions.

“Uh, excuse me?” I said to the dark haired girl. She had perfect features and an eyebrow piercing that matched mines.

“Huh? Oh me. What?” She asked smiling.

“Oh hey, yeah I’m Keely Renee. I need help finding a briefing room.” I said almost sounding like a question because I was so confused.

She looked me up and down. “You must be new. Well I’m Bill and the briefing room is… Never mind I’ll show you.” Bill grabbed my hand and pulled me in the opposite direction. I felt kind of bad for thinking he was a girl at first but his features were so feminine and same with his frame. We walked back towards where my room was then hit the first left into a large room with huge windows that revealed the city outside that I still didn’t recognize.

The tall woman stood up. I remembered the face, those amber eyes, soft cheekbones, blonde ringlets and Carmel skin tone. She smiled.

“Ah thank you Bill. I was beginning to worry we had lost her.” She walked over and shook Bill’s hand. “But if you could stay that would be greatly appreciated. I might need your assistance.” He nodded and smiled.

“Yes Kairo. I’ll take my pace over here. Nice to meet you Keely Renee, and don’t worry I’m not mad that you thought I was a woman beforehand. I get that all the time.” Kairo and Bill both laughed.

Kairo turned to me. “Now for the important things. Hello Keely Renee, I am Kairo. And this is Zonia.” She said gesturing to the world outside the windows. I walked over to the window and watched the traffic that wasn’t on the ground but right at eye level with the window. Mind you the window was about 15 stories in the air.

I laughed. “What is this place?” I asked turning to Bill and Kairo. They both smiled and Kairo walked towards me. “This is Zonia, the Humanoid capital of the world.” She continued.

“The what? Humanoid? What is that?” I asked getting more and more confused.

“Oh my apologies, Humanoid. It’s the alpha race of the world now. A human and robot combined. Only more advance than ever before. With all the disease and catastrophe around the world. The year you were preserved, was the worse for humans but a breakthrough for Humanoids.” She smiled and sat on the table a little. “You were one of chosen few to be preserved and brought to a time where your transformation would be astonishing for this life.” She continued. “Most of all you will be one of my top humanoid captains.” With that Bill sprung up.

“What!?!?” he screamed. “She’s just a day old. Do you know how long training will take?! She can’t be a captain yet, not on my watch!”

Kairo stood up. “She will be whatever I say she is and you will do as you are told Bill!” Kairo snapped.

I rolled my eyes. “What if I don’t want to be a… captain?”

Kairo turned. Her face was still a little fierce but she changed it quickly. Now she was smiling. “Well my dear you don’t really have a choice.” She laughed. “Bill you will show her everything. Understood?” She peered at him.

Bill sighed. “Yes ma’am. Come on.” He ordered gesturing to me.

I followed him out of the room. I tried apologizing but he wouldn’t have it. I knew this was going to be a bumpy road for the two of us. He brought me to this large cafeteria like place where there were many people. Some dressed like me and then some dressed in what looked like old rags. I couldn’t help but stare until Bill broke the silence.

“They’re humans.” He stated handing me a tray. “They’ve been imprisoned for trying to overthrow Kairo’s sector.”

We grabbed food and then got to a table with three other guys sitting there. One of them looked a lot like Bill except more masculine. Bill introduced him as Tom, his twin brother. Then there was Gustav and Georg.

“Hi. I’m Keely Renee.” I said sitting slowly.

Tom smiled. “So little brother we send you off to work and you bring back a girlfriend. Nice.” He winked at me.

Bill rolled his eyes. “She isn’t my girlfriend. Actually she’s your new captain.”

With that Tom, Georg and Gustav’s jaws dropped. Tom huffed. “She’s a what?!?!” He spat out frowning at Bill.

I laughed. These guys really must hate seeing a woman in authority higher than their own. “Look I don’t want to be any trouble. I just want to do my job and find out some answers.”

Bill and Tom were looking at each other as if they were having a silent conversation. Finally Tom spoke. “So she’s the one Kairo has been saving?” He asked looking at me.

Bill shrugged. “Apparently.”

Tom was now staring at me. But not as he did before, this time he was scanning over my body, almost in admiration. I rolled my eyes. “Is there something I could help you with?” I asked staring back at him.

He smiled crookedly. “Well actually, you might be able to--”

Bill cut his brother off. “Not such a good idea brother.” He said gesturing behind me. I turned to find that they were staring at Kairo. She was standing there with about 3 guards around her.

Once I saw her I wondered what they were talking about. Why did Kairo save me? What was so special about me?

After we ate I started combat training with Bill and the others. I caught on pretty quickly besides the fact that Tom was very cocky and obviously a bit stronger than me.

For the next couple of weeks I was getting pretty good with combat training I was even getting better than Tom. He didn’t like that too much at all. Bill was even starting to be nicer to me. Gustav and Georg were never actually a problem. Since Gustav never really spoke and Georg was too busy bothering Tom all the time.

I was sitting with Tom in the cafeteria. “So, who are we training to fight?”

Tom laughed. “Zuka’s army of humanoids. He’s planning to take over Kairo’s sector. And we can’t let that happen.”

I sighed. “Sheesh.”  This new world and life was beginning to be too much for me.

Tom laughed. “Zuka was Kairo’s partner and Lover but one day he just flipped about 60 years ago I think. That’s when he took some humanoids with him and built his own city sector about 3000 miles north. They’ve been battling ever since.”

“Come on. We’re supposed to meet Kairo. She has some news about you.” Tom said pulling me up by my hand.

For the past couple months of training I have gotten really close to Tom. You can say that I have a mild crush on him. We walked hand in hand to the main conference room.

Kairo and Bill were sitting there with Georg and Gustav. Georg and Gustav smiled at me. I sat on the chair directly across from Kairo and Tom stood behind me.

“Keely, Tom nice of you to join us. Alright so were here to talk about you.” She said staring at me. “I thought I should fill you in on those tests we’ve been doing on you.”

“Right.” I said raising my eyebrow at Kairo.

“Well, I must let you know that you are not at all an average Humanoid. You were specially chosen because as a human you held a special set of skills far beyond any human I have ever known.” She said smiling.

“Say what?” I asked in confusion. Special skills I thought. Like what? Can I fly?

“Well, for one you can read minds. Any mind you think of you can read it. You are the strongest of all and you heal. Self-healing at that.” She laughed. “That is why I kept you asleep so long, and why you’ve been having all these tests.” She smiled.

I just stared at her. I looked around the room and I heard her tell me to try and read Tom’s mind. I turned and looked at him. He was smiling at me. I concentrated on him for a moment. Then suddenly I heard him speaking except his mouth wasn’t moving. I was in awe and Tom was laughing.

For the next couple of days I was being trained to use all of my skills. The training came very easy after about two days. I was getting really good and soon it didn’t take long for me to read anyone’s mind. I tried to stay away from Tom’s thoughts. Just because he’s not a very appropriate thinker at any time.

I developed rather quickly and Kairo was pleased. Everything that was once so foreign to me became my new way of life. It was easy to live in this world. I even stopped thinking of the old world. The world I grew up in was a distant memory and no longer my concern. No I lived and fought for New Zonia. For Kairo.

Picture [4/42011 Daily Journal]

Harold was beginning to get angry with the mysetrious lump under the rug everytime he would hit it with the chair it would reappear somewhere else. Whenever he would lift up the rug nothing was there he was beginning to think he had gone mad. He swung the chair over and over but everytime it had come back. Sometimes it even mocked at him.

Harold was frightened but he ws trying to hold his ground against whatever was after him.

"Dangnamitt! Go away you bloody ghoul go away!" Harold yelled. He thought maybe the lump was a ghost and he wasnt to fond of that idea.

He yelled and swung the chair even more. He was determined to get rid of whatever it was bothering him if it was the last thing he'd done.

Too bad for him it was the last thing he'd done, as a full bodied person anyways.

"Behind her the noise escalated..." [Daily Journal]

Behind her the noise escalated in to a loud roar as she kocked the lamp and other items from the nightstand. She screamed into the pillow while tears streamed down her face. Ayoki couldnt believe what had happend to her. She neevr thought this could be her. So many stories on the news and movies on tv, it seems to unreal. But this time it wasnt just real, but it was her. She was living this nightmare.

She heard her phone going off across the room, she knew it was Tom. She knew he would want to knwo what happened. But she couldnt tell him, she couldnt tell anyone. Not now. She wasnt even sure if she could speak. She laid on the bed panting and sweating from the anger and sadness she felt. Tears still streaming down her face, she wanted to die. She wanted to end all the pain, thoughts and memories of that horrible moment. Of those horrible moments, she couldnt think of anything else. All she saw when she closed her eyes was his angry face above hers. Forcing himself on her, taking everything she wanted for herself and Tom.

She was thinking of Tom now. How would he feel knowing that she wasnt only his anymore. That someone had taken something she had only given to him. She knew he would hate her. She knew he wouldnt be able to forgive her. Ayoki cried at the thought of losing Tom, the thought of losing everything.

My Spring Break

       It was pretty funn actually. I hung out with my sister and cousin most of the time. Uh the funniest thing that happened was when we all got our tattoos last friday. My sister was screaming like she was being killed when she got her tattoo on her lower back. Like 3 people were recoding her get her tattoos cause it was pretty funny.

      But yeah I got two tattoos. One on my neck, which is two stars. Me my cousin, sister and our bestfriend all got starts on our necks. Then my first tatto i got on friday says "Make Music Not War" which that one is on my forearm. Its not finished yet I want to get a design around it soon.

       So my break was pretty legit. I had a bunch of fun and went shopping like 4 times too haha. I honestly can't wait for the summer break now. Spring break got me pretty amped for the school year to end.

If you could invent one thing to help mankind, what would it be? [Daily Journal]

        I would invent cars that run off garbage. So you could put garbage inside of them or old clothes. And it could convert them into energy somehow. So that people wouldn't have to worry about gas or the pieces for gas and garbage and stuff could be reused as fuel. You could even have old cars converted so that they can run off of garbage as well. Then no one would need to worry about gas because the "fuel" you need can come from your own home.

Daily Journal: "I once dreamed about..."

    I once dreamed about being a bug. I was trying to avoid getting stepped on and killed. I was looking for food and a new home cause apparently I was lost. Till I found another bug except he was huge. Like a giant beetle, compared to me just a tiny ant. First I thought he was going to eat me but he said he only ate plants. Which was a relief because I was not a plant. We hung out for a while, it was good for me because he was so big that no other bugs tried to bother us. But we still had to watch out for humans that tried to step on us or spray us away.
      We watched someone set a bug on fire, and that in itself was just horrible. I mean how would they feel if someone set them on fire. I bet they wouldn't be too thrilled either.

"I wish someone had told me..."

I wish someone had told me that people were born stupid. Maybe then I wouldnt expect so much from them. I mean not all people but most people. Especially girls and the girls I am talking about are my ex girl friends. they are literally either crazy, stupid or immature and some are all three. a triple threat and not the good kind. They are literally the most annoying people I have ever encountered in my life. I mean there are like two I can say that are cool but the rest are coocoo bananas!

I wish someone who had told me that coming out isnt always a bad thing. Yeah it can be completely scary and a totaly turn off butit's not always bad. I mean for myself it was easy I came out in the 6th grade. No problems I mean from my family anyways. But once I came out to my grandma haha that was a little worse. She dang near punched me ion my eye with her words but it was all good a few days later. 

Picture [Daily Journal 3/15/2011]

"This is awesome!" I hopped in my new shape car.

     I cannot believe it's finally finished. I was driving in the city I could see how shocked the people on the streets were. They were pointing and taking pictures. I could hear them yelling and asking questions. "Oh my god do you see that?" And "Is it real?"

    "Oh yes my friends! This is real. So real it will make your head spin!" I laughed looking at the people around me.

     There were people tacking to take pictures with my shape car. It was pretty freaking hilarious to see how excited everyone was. Then they really got excited when my once shoe car turned into a mushroom car. People were yelled and recording videos as I continued to change the shape of the car. This has to be the greatest thing I've ever come up with.

"My Journey on a Pirate Ship." [Daily Journal]

The cell was was cold and wet. It smelled like old garbage and mold. My best mate Blondie and I were held captive by a group of dirty pirates. When I say dirty I mean dirty fifthly pirates. They were watching over us making sure we made no attempt to escape. Which wasn't going to happen because she was scared half to death and I wasn't going to leave her.

The picture [Daily Journal]

"And what do you think you're doing?" Rabbit asks.

"I'm deciding whether I want your head mounted or your whole body stuffed.. Hold still!"

"Oh that's nice you can... WAIT?!? WHAT?!?" Rabbit screamed. "Head? Mounted? Where? But why? I'm so young!!" Rabbit panicked.

"Oh hush up. I'll shoot you so fast you wont feel anything too long."

"Shoot?!? Like with a gun?!? How about we just talk about this calmly and rationally." Rabbit tried to distract the hunter.

"What do you mean, rabbits don't negotiate." The hunter said.

"Oh but I do! I watch TV. I read books! I can negotiate with anyone... Now please put me down so we can talk about this. Man to.... Herbivore." Rabbit pleaded.

The hunter raised an eyebrow at  rabbit. "But you would look so pretty with my wife's new coat."

"I would, wouldn't I? Maybe a little black here... WAIT! Stop!... I see what your game is buster! You're trying to trick me. HAHA it wont work... You're not a turtle." Rabbit laughed.

Daily Journal: Write from the point of view of a stack of paper a few inches away from the shredder.

      "Oh god! Oh god! Oh god!" I heard from beneath me. Oh what were they so scared about I was going first. The all kept saying "Take one for the team" and "It'll be over be fore you know it."
    Easy for them to say. They weren't the ones about to be destroyed before they could should show off their true potential. I could see the shredder just staring at me. Peering right into my ink filled little soul. I was so scared but every paper has their time to shine and their time to shred. I guess this was mines.
     I collected my thoughts and began to speak. "My fellow Stackians. I am here as your volunteer for first shred. I know their are many who would also step to the plate." I paused for a moment knowing those last words were lies because no one would step up to this plate.
   "But I am honored to be the first of many to say that I have served my stack well." I sighed at the thought of all the things I wont ever be able to display. All the pie charts and maps. All the letters and emails I'll never get to reveal.
 But I guess its for the best. I've had my days and now it was time for me to move aside and make way for the youth of my significant Stackians.

Selfish girl. [Free write poem]

Selfish girl.Hey Selfish girl, are you ready for the world

Yeah I know you want it now, too bad it doesnt work that way.

You pay what you owe or you're put away.

I know you're used to diamonds and gold but here,

Girl you always do what you're told.

I know you hate me and that's okay

Cause you'll give me what I want anyway.

One day left to live... [Daily Journal]

I would spend the entire day with all the people I love and have a big get together. I would have to best time of my life and think about nothing but all the people I love. Then at the end of the day I would find the tallest building and jump off of it or out of the window and the highest floor. Just because that seems like a good way to go if I'm already gonna die anyways.

Etheree Poem

Rette Mich

I cannot see anything but your eyes

I wish that you would give me a chance

I hate being alone without

Your arms to rescue me from

This horrible pain that

I created so

Don't let me go

Please come and

Rette

Mich

Sense of Time Poem

Yesterday


Yesterday is black

Yestersday is black because you cannot see it

Yesterday feels forgotten and cold

Yesterday sounds like an empty train station

Yesterday smells like an old empty house

Yesterday taste like the in between  of living and dying

Yesterday is gone, so why are you still living it.

What would I do to change the world [Daily Journal]

To change the world I would try make people more accepting of others. It would be stupid to say make the hate go away because that's virtually impossible. But having people be more accepting or understanding of others  and how they feel, live and think could fix a lot of issues going on around the world. Maybe not giving so much power to one person or group would also help because people tend to get power hungry and that always ruins things no matter where they are.

How ridiculous I was as a.... [Daily Journal]

How ridiculous I was as a giant octopus came to my house to hang out yesterday. At first I thought it was some silly dream but it was all very real. Most people would be afraid by this but I was amazed. It's not everyday you get to hang out with an octopus. All day long we played silly games and swam around in the ocean. I would drench myself in the water, someimes I wish I could stay there all day. It mustve been goofy of me to think that but I didnt care. Once we were done the octopus has to twist her tentacles dry before she took me home. Sad but true I had woken up from that dream. I wanted it to be real, it felt so real. But if it was fake why were there giant water spots on my front stairs?

Acrostic Poem

Keely Renee Brazelton

Keely love to talk

Even when no one listens

Enjoys music a lot

Loves to sing and write

Yelling is her specialty

Remembers nothing she did last month

Even if she says she does

Never forgets your name

Even if she said she did

Eventually shuts up, when she sleeps

Brightens anyones day, who lets her

Rants about things no one else cares about

Always tries to have fun

Zooper cool

Energetic all the time

Lives on the weird side

Tells you how she feels

Opposite is her thing

Never gives up

Concrete poem

Melody

You

Can follow

Me. Copy me down

My words and sounds amaze the

But one can ever replace me. My purpose

Is much more than what it seems to be. You would

Know this if you listen with every single part of yourself.

I cannot make you understand. I cannot make

You see. But I can make you listen to

The words i play for you, it may

Not sink in at first but I'll

Be stuck in your

Head forever

You can't

Escape

It

The house was made of… [Journal entry]

The house was made of titanium and glass. Gabby and her evil step mother have lived there for the past 200 years. Gabby has never been able to leave. Until 3 days she was watching the stars twinkle and someone appeared.Gabby had to squint until she noticed it was a beautiful woman with wings she declared herself to be Gabby's fairy godmother. She didn't believe her so the woman turned a rock into a wagon and a squirrel into a horse. The godmother told Gabby that if she wanted to leave she had one day to get as far away as possible before the rock and squirrel turned back into their natural selves. Gabby's knees got wobbly with excitement and she hugged the godmother before thanking her and taking off. Gabby ended up leaving and never looking back. She had went through villages and forests before the rock and squirrel changed back. She found herself in a village called Humanoid. It was like no city she had ever seen before. There were large gates, it reminded her of a city. She had never seen one before but the books she had seen them in sounded how this looked. Accept this city looked much more advance than the ones from her books back home. The gates make a crack noise and they opened. When she saw the tall pale figure who was on the other side she couldnt help but marvel over his beauty. He was tall and covered in leather. His eyes we a chocolate brown and his hair was jet black and long with white dreds underneath. She had never seen such a creature before.

Sonnet

Cannot undo was has been done for you
The choice was yours and you shall live with it
You cannot feel what is wrong with you too
Nothing left for you to do but come sit

Let go of all that you know and believe
It may be gone but you can still be free
Make sure to tell yourself never to leave
I know you can't, but one day you will see

You feel like nothing else matters but them
Its hard to take care fo yourself with it
You cannot do anything to save him
The pain feels like youve been brutally hit

You jumped that time to get rid of the pain
But now you see nothing but lots of rain.

Daily journal

Three people I could invite to dinner would be the band Tokio Hotel cause they're my favorite band in the world and I would love to talk to them about their music and about music in general. Besides the lead guitarist is the most beautiful person I have ever seen in my life! It would be cool to have them there since they're one of top musical influences. So it would be important to me to have that time to get to know them.

Daily Journal

When I was about 7 or 8 we used to live in this house that was kinda old. And my brothers room was in the attic. And in one of the closets there was a hole in the ceiling. So in the closet there were these pigeons that lived in there. And one time when I was bothering my brother he locked me in the closet with the pigeons. I was in there for a good 20 minutes and I was crying and screaming, cause the birds was flying around by me and stuff. Finally after 20 minutes he let me out and i was crying for at least an hour. He got in trouble and afterwards was still mad at me. So ever since then I have been dealthy afraid of birds. I don't like them, and I just UGH! I hate birds with a dying passion. Especially pigeons.

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Freewrite

OMG! I hate people. Like literally they just get on my friggen nerves. This dang girl that I don't even know in came up to me one time and asked "Hey aren't you that gay girl?" At first I wasn't sure if she was serious but she was. See I wanted to be like "You dumb brawd! Ain't you that girl imma slap in the eye?!?" or I should have said "Yup and NO I don't want you. SO MOVE THE HECK AROUND!" UGH! I hate when people come up to me and ask me that. My orientation ain't got nothing to do with you. If I'm not getting at you then it don't concern you. And on TOP of that who the heck walks up to someone they don't know and ask them that?!!?!? See that's why these dang children go around getting beat up all the time cause they have no home training and they parents ain't doing shiznitch with them! Like really do you have no respect for others at all. Ugh that's the reason why I don't associate with many people as it is. Like in school yeah I talk to a bunch of people but outside of school I got my select few. That's cause if you go around talking to people like that and I'm with you. I'm not getting shot cause YOU got a big mouth and YOU cant shut the hell up! Ugh that really just ticked me off cause I didn't even know the girl so that means somebody going about putting MY business out on the dang street. Not that I care about anyone knowing but its the simple fact that people are talking about me with out me and people I don't know coming up to me asking stuff like that out of the blue. Like does it make them feel better to know that they all in someone else's business or that they got something on me that everyone who needs to know already know. Like hop off that ish really cause its ridiculous!

CINQUAIN poem [absent]

Light

Brightly shinning

In the early morning

Can yo return later for me

Or not

Alliteration poem

Bring back black nights

Having nothing left but white light

Nothing left to do but stay and fight

I cannot believe the dreams were right

I guess we have nothing left that might

Live, last and long

Haiku Poem [Late/ Absent]

Flowers awake
The sun is out late
Nothing seems right

Earliest childhood memory

My earliest childhood memory would be when I was like 5 or 6 years old. I was at my grandmas house for this family thing and I was with a bunch of my cousins. We were all just playing outside and being obnoxious. My older cousin was chasing me around the yard. And I tried to run up the stairs. But when I got on the first step I felt something hot burning my foot. When I stepped down to see what it was nothing was there. But my foot was still burning. When I looked at the bottom of my foot there was a cigarette but that was stuck to the bottom of my foot. I has a blister on my foot for like a week and couldn't walk until it popped. Since I was a very dramatic child and still am. I didn't want anyone to touch it, or try to pop it. So when it popped in its own I thought i was dying.
     That's the earliest thing I can remember from when I was little.

Daily Journal 2/18/2011

A woman walks out into the cold night air. Her hands are shaking from what just happened to her dog. She was walking him down her normal path. She saw the same people that she always does. But she could feel that something was different. That maybe something was going to happen but she wasn't sure what. As she was exiting the park and huge dark shadow cast over her and the dog. Then suddenly the dog began to lift off the ground. The woman screamed and looked above their heads. She was surprised to see that there was some weird flying craft above her. There was a beam of light that the dog was being lifted into. She was trying to pull him down by the leash until it snapped and the dog just kept floating away. The woman was terrified and cried for the loss of her dog.

Showing a story [Metaphor poem] Absent

Telling  a story but using no words.

Using the body to give off the vibes.

Letting your movements tell us how you feel



No one but you understands why you do this.

Is it because actions speak louder than words.

Maybe because you cannot say a word.



Things seem better this way

Using your body to show us what you want to say.

Words are not needed, a voice can be lost

All you need are your movements

Parts Of Speech Poem

The Words

Strong and soft

Expressing yet hiding

Words outspoken

Free write

            So I'm almost finished with all my registration for college. I'm excited because I'm going to an art school. The best thing about it is that I'll be surrounded by artistic people everyday. I'm getting my bachelors degree in Audio Production. Only thing that sucks is that my ex girlfriend is going there for the same thing. Which means we'll be in class together. That's not okay, but i guess I can stick it out. I mean its only 4 years right? Ha ha on the brighter note, the school is awesome. theres a brand new 50,000 dollar studio that's being built and I get total access to it for school and even fro my free time. Which to me that's pretty awesome to be able to use the school studio for my own purposes. Everyone always asks me aren't I afraid of not getting any good jobs right after college. I just tell them I'd rather be struggling a little doing something I love, then being stuck in a career I just "settled" for. I see some family members who ave done that and even some friends and they're pretty much miserable.
    
           The second thing I'm excited about is graduating. I'm sorry but I really hate high school. I mean I like going to school and I like most of my classes. It's just with the excitement of what I'll be doing in school for the next 4 years after this, makes high school look like crap ha ha. I mean I know without high school I wouldn't be able to do what I want to do for a living but sheesh could it end already.

Simile By Keely

Music is like life because it can never be forgotten.

Dancing is like emotions because it expresses how you feel

A pen is like a voice because it gets you to the point

Technology is like time because its always changing

Money is like hate because it can tear people apart

Change Poem [Absent]

Time

Tomorrow
Yesterday
Today


It
Never
Stays
The
Same


You
Can't
Expect
Anything


Because
No
Day

Is

Ever
The
Same

Simile Exercise

1. A calendar is like a mirror because_________________.

2. A sandwich is like a pizza because you eat it.

3. An ice cube is like a cookie because it can break.
4. A knife is like a whisper because it can give you chills.

5. Kissing is like a careful collision because It can hurt a little.

6. Wet sand feels like a peeled grape.

7. Dead worms feels like leftover spaghetti.

8. Falling in love sounds like h*ll because you always get burned.

9. A dentist’s drill feels like death because it's horrible.

10. Tomato soup tastes like bleeding hearts because that's just nasty. 

Bucket List [Absent]

Bucket List

1. Learn 3 foreign languages
2. Visit europe
3. Sky diving
4. Sing in a public place for no reason
5. Sell one solo album
6. Eating contest
7. Have a poem or short story published
8. Camp out at a concert
9. Learn Karate
10. Donate blood

Out of the dark we came, into the…

Out of the dark we came, into the forest. It was dangerous because half of us were blind and the others could not hear. It was horrible, no one knew what to do.The three wise men got crafty and found out how to guide us who could not hear by writing down instructions. If we weren't paying attention the musician who was with us played his trumpet loudly. Only thing was that there were natives in the forest who would reek havoc on those who aren't from there. But when they do you have to try not to squeal or else they get angry and make it worse. It was a sad night really because no one knew if we were going to make it out alive.

Limeric

There once was a monkey named Joe
His big fat best friend was Poe

He's got so much hair
You can't help but stare

Just look at that monkey named Joe

Ode To Music

Ode to music

The one thing that sets me free.

Evolving every day, Always different.

Expression in its best form.

I love how many ways you can be displayed.

How the words that mean one thing can mean another just by the way you portray them.

I love how no matter what no one can get you mixed up with anything else.

It takes the pressure out of letting my feelings out.

It helps me cope with all of life’s challenges good and bad.

What else can I say, music lives with me forever.

!0 years from now.

I woke up this morning in my king size bed to the smell of eggs being scrambled. In the kitchen my wifey is cook me breakfast before I go to the studio. After breakfast I got dressed for my day. When I got to the studio the band was waiting. We we rehersed for about 3 hours till I went home to chill with my girl. It was just a regular day at the house.
I'm living with just my girl and our dogs. No kids cause I don't have time for that and no other roomates cause thats not okay.

Auto Bio poem

Keely

Out-going, Passionate, Outspoken

Sister of Michael

Lover of women, laughter, music

Who feels content when expressing her feelings

Who needs to learn everything she can

Who gives laughter, happiness & advice

Who fears failure, spiders, & the end

Who would like to see everyone around her happy

Resident of Apple Valley

Brazelton

Most Embarrasing moment aka HILARIOUS moment

      I don't easily get embarrassed so I guess I'll tell you about my most hilarious moment I can think of.
      Last summer I was hanging out with some of my friends in uptown Minneapolis. We were walking to the grocery store and I had on these huge sweatpants that belonged to one of my guy friends. Obviously i couldn't fit them but I wore them anyways. When we were in the store I had to keep holding them up and pulling them up cause they were too big. Like a dummy I forgot that they didn't fit so I was in one of the aisles reaching for something. And with about 20 other people around me I forgot to hold my pants up and as soon as i got what I was reaching for, my pants fell down.
      My friends and the people around me were just laughing and so was i. Now it wasn't too embarrassing cause I'm not a person who can get embarrassed at all really.

Thank you Chekelea

Cheke thanks for always being there to support me. I know you might not agree with everything I do but I know thats because you care. I always enjoy all the time and advice you give me.  I consider myself very lucky to have a sister like you around because most girls my age don't have that. Thank you for always including me in your life and keeping me around. I appreciate everything you've done for me. That you for all of your support and love. I know sometimes I may make you mad or annoy you maybe but that's what sisters are for. :D

So thank you for everything you have done for me and will do for me, love you so much. 

Keely Renee 

Memorable Events In My Life

Finishing my College application
Finishing my First Short Story
Putting my first dog to sleep
My 16th birthday
Singing in my first talent show in 4th grade
Getting my first job in 9th grade
Moving up two levels in my ballet class
Filling out my taxes for the first time
Only having to go to summer school once

A peaceful place

The most peaceful place I have ever been is probably; my great grandpa’s old farm in Nashville. It’s so pretty there and the animals are crazy fun to look at. I haven’t been there in a few years but the last time I was there I could’ve stayed forever. The fields are pretty I don’t know the exact acres but it’s big. There’s a huge chicken coop right behind the main house and the stables where one horse named Rojo stays. Also there are 4 pigs there, Sam, Roach, Piggy and Franklin. When I was little me and my brother named Piggy and Roach, I don’t know why we chose those names. The main house is like a off white cream color. With like 5 bedrooms and 2 bathrooms. The kitchen is huge!

I really miss going down there every summer. It was a lot of fun.  Plus the weather in Nashville is so amazing. I’m a southern girl so I don’t mind the heat at all. Since the farm is now only where my aunt and uncle live. They don’t do much with it besides take care of the animals and host family stuff there. So I’ll hopefully be going down there this summer before I start college. It’s a great place to be and just let go of all my problems and worries.